counting down to CNY and writing my resolutions...
January is passing so quickly...maybe it was the many holidays...from Christmas to New Year and now CNY is approaching.
Prepared for 2009...i don't think so. wrapping up for 2008 is still on my to do list. so what have i been doing since 010109. i wondered...
2008 had been quite smooth sailing at work, at home and in church. it just normal. and normal may not be good because this shows that i have not been thinking of my goals and achieving them.
but my Heavenly Father is good and faithful. He had made my 2008 difference according to His plans. i went to Yunnan, Kumming twice, once for fun and the other for a service trip. and God had began a work in me since March. i wanted to go back again but with the limited resources i have financially and also at work, i don't if i can afford to go. SL told me that if i really wanted to go, i will work around it. the trip was scheduled in end Jul, but due to airfare, we went in early Aug.
i opened my eyes to see and my ears to hear when i was in LC. i talk to the staff and the students and they left a burden in my heart. or should i say that God had place this burden in me. it was the same burden i had years ago when i decided to serve Him in SYFC. i need to do something with this burden, i had to do something with it.
2008 ended rather quickly, yet with much to thank God for. Always for His abundance grace to me and His provision. And He had provided for the business too. And the new mission He had placed within me. i have been bugged by the questions if i am going to LC this year for longer period of time. i am certain that it will be this year...March or August or March & August.
to be continue...
outing with a difference
test
Is all about trusting...
How easy is it to trust someone...i really don't know. i thought i could do it effortlessly. i was wrong. today, my staff is supposed to be back from his retreat and report to work punctually at 10am. i was expecting him but he didn't turn up. i was disappointed. i thought he will be responsible enough to at least call me and sms me if he is not coming.
or maybe i was mistaken, his retreat had not ended yet. i really have no answers.
i began to have funny thoughts about him not turning up for work like: He have decided not to work here anymore because our pay for him is very little, or he have better lobangs outside, or this is not what he wanted..or maybe he just doesn't want to come to work. but beside being disappointed, i was also worried. not sure if anything had happened.
all i can do now is to trust that he is still at the retreat and he had not inform me clearly about when the retreat is ending. and also trust that he is not an irresponsible person.
Dear Lord, teach me to trust not in him but in You who is at work in his life.
Forgiven and Recounciled
Finally oh finally i began writing again. It has really been a long time since i wrote. It seems like many moons ago. I write this entry is to remember the goodness of God....
This incident started years back when i was still in SYFC. I had this very good friend of mine, whom i have known for 18 years since secondary school. Back then, we were already serving together as student, then as volunteer and even became full time staff. Our friendship had said to have gone through thick and thin. Sometimes i do wonder if this friendship is strong enough to withstand sudden 'thunder storm'. this storm lasted years and we almost got ship wrecked. Over the years, we have accumulated far too many misunderstanding about each other. i deem myself as someone who have given and sacrifice much for her but in return, i was treated the way i treated her. it was the beginning of failed expectations. i began to be indifferent. i told myself to always avail myself if she needs help but i will not initiate. Why? Maybe i was afraid to be hurt again and yet again.
about 3 weeks ago, at cell group, we were doing the session of 40 days of community. in the sharing, we were asked if there is someone that i need to forgive. i remember this friend of mine. i felt hurt, betrayed. so i prayed to God that i will forgive her for all that she had done.
Yesterday (20/11/2006) was the test of true forgiveness. we are supposed to meet a friend who came back from US for lunch. so before the meeting, i received an SMS from my friend asking if we had shared the gospel with the friend we are meeting. And i took it that she is going to do it no matter what (not condsidering the state that my US friend is in), i felt she was inconsiderate as she had not met this friend for a long time. i told her off. i got upset by her and she got upset by me. Both of us ever thought of not attending the lunch gathering. God had a GREATER plan than what i was feeling then. The Holy Spirit prompted me to go and resolved and reconcile with her. This is something both od us won't want to do in the past. Yet God gave us corage and maturity to handle the situation. The lunch went on well, we sat down and talk after my US friend left. We talked and finally understood each other. i recalled those times when we talk for hours and yet we don't seem to get it. but yesterday we talked for 30mins, and we understood. i FIRMLY believed this is the WORK of the Lord. i went back feeling right with God and with my friend. This had certainly bring the friendship to a new level.
PRAISE THE LORD!
